::sigh::

my nose is itchy and stuffy. my eyes sting and feel swollen. i feel like my thinking is foggy. maybe it's time to start taking allergy medicine again, ugh.

life is so busy right now. i was walking through the store today with Noah when he said "everyone is staring at you, and all the people are frozen." in that moment it did feel like time was moving very slowly. for a second i imagined what it would feel like if the world and time stood still and i could just BE... without my actions and attitudes affecting other people. and vice versa. but i really don't want to be so isolated. i'm lonely enough as it is. my husband is busy. my kids are busy. i am exhausted just trying to keep up.

between Hailey's seizure and the ensuing doctor visits and diagnostic testing... the annual ballet recital plus a production of Alice in Wonderland including 7 performances this coming Thursday-Sunday (and all the rehearsals for that)... my mother-in-law in the hospital again with her health struggles... and the inside of our house looks like it was hit by a tornado... there is plenty of stress on our family right now.

it really would benefit me to focus on the positive. and get back into my gratitude journal. i am overwhelmed. ::sigh::